It is what it is what it is*

“We have a choice. We can spend our whole life suffering because we can’t relax with how things really are, or we can relax and embrace the open-endedness of the human situation, which is fresh, unfixated, unbiased.”~Pema Chödrön

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Recently I am working hard to accept this notion of accepting what is. (I’ve been working on it for years & years now, it seems; why is this *little* concept the hardest thing to master? It sounds like a no-brainer, right?) Some days, I see so, so clearly how so much of our suffering (crankiness, restlessness, anxiety-tinged moments…) is self-imposed, merely getting caught in that unproductive wormhole of wishing for things to be other than they are.

On those days when I can simply ride the wave and take it all as it comes (the good, the bad, the unexpected, the intuited), I see how free I feel, how unattached I am to the outcome, how much more effortlessly things seem to just fall into place.

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Life recently has been chock full of celebrations, kind gifts, soothing SUN, lots of movement, doctors appointments (to FINALLY get to the bottom of some food allergy stuff, touch wood), several wonderful *coincidences*, a couple mild disappointments, a lot of productivity (on some fronts) and loads of procrastination (in other areas). Some people I care about deeply have been going through really tough things, and I’ve been feeling their burdens from afar (hello, Pisces…Also, I learn more and more that, for better or for worse, I have the true characteristics of an empath).

But overall, I feel the hopefulness of spring blooming all around me. This is a lovely time of year, really. I’m working hard to roll with the punches, not get stuck in the muck.

Bottom line: Life has been FULL.  And that’s mostly a really good thing. Because of it, though—this weekend I’m demanding some quiet and stillness for myself (sometimes tricky for me), before things rev up again next week. Fun/busy/exciting happenings linger on the horizon, and I’m determined to steady myself in the interim.

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Another Year *Wiser*

The thing about birthdays, is they make you wonder…how are there days when we—when I—could ever possibly forget that I am so, so surrounded by love?

What a brilliant reminder.

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“You are the universe in ecstatic motion.” ~RUMI

Like No One’s Watching

“Don’t move the way fear makes you move. Move the way joy makes you move.”~ OSHO

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I just LOVED this little guy at last weekend’s bluegrass extravaganza (inside a Hyatt Regency, of all places), who was dancing his wee heart out—stationed front and center—in jig-ready wellies/boots. He paid no attention whatsoever to who else might be watching (and believe me, I was not the only one captivated by his enthusiastically-executed freestyle moves). His lack of inhibition was so refreshing and inspiring.

At what age do we lose that freedom, and when is it time to get it back?

I turn 36 tomorrow, and, if I’m being totally honest, that number catches me a bit by surprise. It’s been mostly a really good year, sprinkled with some moments that were tougher than I could have ever foreseen as well as many moments that were far more magnificent than I ever could have possibly dreamed up. I will find myself celebrating sans family for the first time in forever, which makes me sad, but I also relish the fact that I will be surrounded by a loving, supportive, fun, funny, soulful “family” of Seattle-based folks who are more amazing than I could have envisioned before I surprisingly dropped my finger on this place on the map.

Here’s to a new year of possibility and moving in joy…..like this lil’ lad reminded me, the beauty of dancing—wild & free—like no one else is watching at all.