Spinning into Clarity

When I have too many decisions laid out before me, I’ll admit it, I kind of freak. I spin. The overwhelm becomes paralyzing. I don’t know to describe it other than feeling like I might just short circuit, smoke rising from my tangled wires. It’s just not something my brain/heart handles well.

Right now I am trying to get a clear vision of things I want for 2015. Projects I’ll pursue, plane tickets I’ll buy, people I’ll prioritize, pipe dreams I’ll declare not that zany after all. It’s pretty wide open, and it’s so exciting, and I KNOW I’m so blessed to have the options, the resources, the people…this freedom.

(And this is all to say, too, that I know that—ultimately—I don’t have control over the big picture anyway. If this past year has taught me anything, it’s that life is as unpredictable as the sky is blue. The best-laid plans often get derailed by beyond-our-control circumstances, and—on the opposite end—amazing, unscripted additions can evolve that hadn’t blipped on the radar screen at all.)

Anyway, this past week, instead of feeling excited about the mostly-blank canvas sitting before me, calming awaiting my first brushstrokes, all this mental sorting, envisioning and possibility has had me feeling a bit cranky and pretty anxious. And while I’m not exactly sure WHAT lies at the root of all that, I am trying to be patient with my wily emotions, trusting that the clarity will come.

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In a tarot card reading I had done last year, the friend-of-a-friend in charge gently (yet passionately) encouraged me to “be big”….to “be bold.” To flaunt my me-ness. Something resonated.

I’m coming for you, 2015. I’m still on the sidelines warming up, but I’ll be there soon.

Photo by Corinne Whiting

Photo by Corinne Whiting

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” | Marianne Williamson

Marvelous

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Some days, gratitude flows easier than others. Today, I was very *grateful* to be in that space, open to the beauty of it all.

“What I want is to open up. I want to know what’s inside me. I want everybody to open up. I’m like an imbecile with a can-opener in his hand, wondering where to begin – to open up the earth. I know that underneath the mess everything is marvelous. I’m sure of it.

I know it because I feel so marvelous myself most of the time. And when I feel that way everybody seems marvelous… everybody and everything… even pebbles and pieces of cardboard… a match stick lying in the gutter… anything… a goat’s beard, if you like. That’s what I want to write about… and then we’re all going to see clearly, see what a staggering, wonderful, beautiful world it is.”~Henry Miller

*dReAmS*

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“The earth is heavy and opaque without dreams.”~ Anaïs Nin

(p.s. Hi from cozy home. I’m attempting to stay blissfully offline as much as possible this week…:))

Opposite Day

I’m afraid I’m  feeling the  180-degree opposite of motivated today, but alas, I like this quote.

“Make voyages! Attempt them! There is nothing else.”
– Tennessee Williams

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Now, if you’ll excuse me….I’m off to veg out with Juan Pablo and some mates. Ciao.

Women in Me

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Words, Pics, Tunes

Today, I’m digging…
THIS cartoon:
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And these beautiful words:
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“I have sea foam in my veins,
for I understand
the language of waves.”
~ Le Testament d’Orphee

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And this guy. Ah!

Happy day, friends!

Words & Tunes

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[Seeing these guys Thursday:)]

Happy Monday!

A Whole Stream

[Pit stop @ Zillah, WA]

[Pit stop @ Zillah, WA]

“….the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would have come his way.” ~WH Murray

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*beauty*

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Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror. 
But you are the eternity and you are the mirror.
― Kahlil Gibran

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Pickathon was beautiful, magical, fun, just awesome. I loved it.

I hope to compile some thoughts about it soon. For now, though, I’m just easing back into life outside of the those dusty, friendly, music-filled woods.  So bear with me, please:)

I hope you all had wonderful weekends, too.

Eyes to See

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Synchronicity is an ever present reality for those who have eyes to see. 
– Carl Jung

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I couldn’t take pictures while I was floating on this river in an inner tube linked to friends yesterday, but trust me when I say it was pretty damn spectacular. The color of the water, the sight of mountain peaks around every bend, the hawks soaring overhead. This place is so beautiful! (+ I’m realllly digging this summer.)

Grateful.

Hope y’all had good weekends, too!

 

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