“When connections are real, they simply never die. They can be buried, or ignored or walked away from, but never broken. If you’ve deeply resonated with another person or place, the connection remains despite any distance, time, situation, lack of presence, or circumstances. If you’re doubtful then just try it- go and revisit a person or place and see if there’s any sense at all of the space between now and then. If it was truly real, you’ll be instantly swept back into the moment it was before it left- during the same year and place with the same wonder and hope, comfort and heartbeat. Real connections live on forever.”

{This photo of me was taken by my friend Melissa. Doesn't the filter make it EXTRA amazing?}

{This photo of me was taken by my friend Melissa. Doesn’t the filter make it EXTRA amazing?}


A Midsummer’s Anti-Recap

Sunset on GG

People keep asking how my summer’s been, and I don’t quite know what to say. (First off, why the past tense, people? I ain’t saying adieu to this season just yet!)

Also, it’s been so much, a bit of it all; it’s been everything. There’s no tidy response. It started off with so much unspeakable sadness, and it will end with a bittersweet ache, too (my brother and sister-in-law move to the UK next week!).

But, man, in between, there’s been so much goodness. Life is so full, so multi-layered, so surprising, so rich. I pinch myself sometimes—the deep-rooted connections I’ve made, the beautiful music I get to hear, the waters I get to frequent, the fiery sunsets I get to drink in. These days, I’m just really sitting back and taking it allllll in.

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“There are no simple answers in life. There is a good and bad in everyone and everything. No decision is made without consequence. No road is taken that doesn’t lead to another. What’s important is that those roads always be kept open, for there’s no telling what wonder they might lead to.”~D.J. MacHale

Me Vs. The Gut

From time to time, I get mad at my gut. I want things to feel right that just don’t. Sometimes it involves situations, other times people. Logically speaking–these things, these connections, these projects, these whatever they are–for all intents and purposes, they should work. So why don’t they then?

The gut can’t always know, can it??

When I first come to this realization, I often feel disappointed and let-down. I want to fight it. An inexplicable sadness descends; I’m inclined to cower inside my shell. (It’s as if I’m mourning the loss of something that never even was.) I waver in an uncomfortable zone of confused indecisiveness. And limbo-land, we’ve all learned, is never a nice place to visit.

I know that not everyone can relate to this, perhaps only us ultra-sensitive souls. (Maybe it’s my two Pisces fish forever swimming in opposite directions:)?) To some, life is more clear-cut. If something isn’t working, if it doesn’t feel right, then why on earth do it? Pull the plug; cut it off; move on. No big whoop.

For those of us in the other camp, it’s a bit less definitive. Just know that we’re trying.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned up till now, it’s that guts don’t lie. And you can force and finagle and make do all you want, and perhaps it’ll work for awhile. It’ll probably be fine, maybe it’ll even be good.

But in the end, the gut always wins. Things that felt “off” snowball into feeling, well, awfully “off.” And arriving at that place is not something I wish upon anyone.

So it’s simple, right? I should just learn to listen to that trusty gut early on. I’m getting there. Slowly.

** “Listen to the whispers and you won’t have to hear the screams.”~Cherokee proverb (often reiterated by our gal Oprah)